8 Deadly Love Sins.

1. Pride (Your too good for him):
If you were raised to be a mommy and daddy's little princess, you can end up thinking no one else is good enough for you, according to the article "deadly signs of dating". Pride is an excessive love of self, everyone has it, but not everyone knows how to handle it. Based on my observation, you can lose your friends or love ones on too much pride or worst, both.

2. Greedy
Is known as a rapacious desire or pursuit or wealth, status and power. Greediness may lead to different kinds of sins, like stealing, lying etc. Striving hard and having everything and anything and sharing blessings is far different from having having it all and keeping it all.

3.Insecurity or being Jealous
This characters are very common for most of us. Each and everyone has our own insecurity, in that case we tend to be jealous to other of what they have and we don't but we always do it the wrong way, instead of making it as an inspiration for us to excell or improve, we often label it as "others fault".

4.Unsensitive/unconsiderate
I observe that MOST of the people nowadays, don't have that "respect for others" attitude. They do whatever they want without considering what is the effect for others. Well, maybe it's good to not care for what others may think as long as your happy with what your doing because you'll have your freedom, BUT, use your mind, and be sensitive enough to care of how it may affect them, and how it will ruin their own rights and freedom. BE PERSON, not JUST A PERSON.

5. Lust
Intense sexual desire or appetite is called lust. Some of us, may think that love and lust come together. But lust alone is not a good basis for love. For ex. In a couple, love making are natural and normal, but too much of it and liking a person for it, is obviously not a part of love. But Lust. 

6.Sloth
Is considered less serious among the 7 deadly sins. For me, it is more of one's knowledge and control than anything and anyone. (Wikipedia) label it, as a failure to utilize one's talents.


7.Vainglory
This is commonly known as unjustified boasting.
Pope Gregory believed it as a sign of pride.

8.Materialism
For me, too much love for material things is a sin. Although it can make us happy but it can never complete us as a person. It may contain, excessive buying, or too much spending, even if it cost you more from what you have and can have. Shopaholics are considered materialistic person.

it was just my imagination..

  Ever since I got the DSLR whom my mom gave me for my 20th birthday, i started being fond of taking pictures. of others, mostly stolen. i just like shooting them on their most unaware moment.
  One cloudy afternoon, i decided to go out and bring my camera with me, walking along our subdivision and taking random shots, the cloud went from cloudy to dark, looks like the rain is about to pour any second, so i decided to go back home. As i was scanning the pictures i got on my camera which i shot earlier, I notice, I unknowingly took a picture of a guy who is looking very hot on his jogging outfit.
I don't know him but I can't resist myself on starting at his beautiful picture, zooming it in and out, just to see a clearer view of  his gorgeous face and hot body.
 The next day, I went out again at the same time and waited for him to maybe pass by, but hour passed away and my camera's battery is turning red, still no "him" on the sight. So I start to walk going back home while browsing thru the pictures on my camera again, and then I accidentally bump into someone!, surprisingly the "guy" who I am waiting for a while ago was the same guy whom I bumped into now. He immediately said sorry and so do I. He smiled back at me and said " If I'm not mistaken, your the girl who is taking pictures yesterday, right?" I don't know what to say for that moment because I thought that he caught me taking pictures of him, So i answered "maybe" and he replied me with a smile. He is so handsome when he smiled and his lips... his lips, red and kissable. He extended his hand and said, "i'm ray" shaking his soft hand, I replied "lucy".
  That was the start of us getting to know each other. Whenever we go out I never forget to take a picture of him, and every night I stare at it. There comes this one night, that i felt something different as I was looking at his half naked picture. I closed my eyes and start imagining...... what if we were at the same room and I'm invisible, I would watch is every move, stare at his beautiful face, and stay very close at him, feelin' the heat of his body, touching his soft hand and resting my head on his chest, and before we both go to sleep, imagining touching my lips to his and it goes on and on until I became visible to him, to his eyes, and his hands, very visible.

Who is she?

Babies are cute. They are the cutest God’s gift to a mother, but what if that mother decided to get rid of that chid?

I was once became an irregular student, its hard at first , because the group of friends that your fond with are not the same people your with anymore, because of the different schedule. I was attending this minor subject and had few friends as the time pass, I had no problem with them and so they are to me. It not hard looking for a companion  in that class because one of my friend’s friend is there, we have the same room and schedule. Since I don’t have someone to be with in my break time , she asked me if I want to eat lunch with them, and I say yes. I did not have a hard time trusting her with my stories, cause she made me believe that I can trust her, and one day, me and our common friend had a fight, I was so pissed off about her attitude that I had said rude and bad things to her which is true but I didn’t mean to hurt her, that friend of my promised me to not tell anybody about that issue so it will not be a big deal after all. And oned time while we are eating, she told me about abortion stuff, i felt weird and ask her why, then she told me she is pregnant that time, and her parents doesn’t know about it. She also told me that she and her boyfriend will not do anything bad to the baby and so I believed her. The next day, when I enter the room I didn’t see her and ask her other friends if they happen to know where she is, they say that she is absent that day. And the next day, she is still not around, I’ve been worried but keep quiet about it, then I heard one of her classmate said “ she is not going to school anymore, she dropped all of her subjects” and they don’t know the reason. On the other hand my friend and I whom had a fight, talked and settled our issues, but another day had pass I don’t know why is she suddenly cold, and I found out that the “girl” that I once told my stories, go behind my back and broke her promise.

A year past, I forgot about that issue and her. And was again, a regular student. Entering the classroom with my friends, I saw her sitting down in the corner of the classroom with her friends too. I don’t know what will be my reaction cause I mad at her for doing what she had done against my back. But since I don’t care about her, I decided not to talk or have connections with her anymore. As I observe her, she had change, she was mature then and now all I can see, Is a teenager acting like a kid, and back then she was a simple girl, now she is wearing to much make up and acting aggressively whenever she is moving. And I also heard that she had an abortion done, that is why is left the school and stay at home for a year.

Who is this I am talking? Maybe she is your classmate now? Or your student? Or somebody you see at school.

just in a dream...

For most people money and wealth matters most more than anything in this world, and for some, believes the opposite. Reality wise, money really matters when living in this world, but if you let it dominate your belief you’ll forget  that there are more important things than money.

I wanna share this happiest moment of my life, everything seems to be perfect, I went to my bank to withdraw a big amount of money because me and my family and other closest relative are going to a trip, out of the country, and we decided that we should go on a cruise. Anything and everything we wanted and needed are there and provided by the crews, we get it all in a VIP treatment and being a prioritize passenger. We all enjoy that very special day, most especially that we are complete. Savoring and enjoying it without hesitation and thinking of the money that will be spent. It is really good to have this lots of money I mean not just lots but a wealth that you cannot imagine how big. I bought a big house, a mansion to be exact- a beautiful one,Had it interior designed by a professional. Since I promised my dad,  when I was a little kid that I will buy him his dream car and house, finally now I did, not to forget also my mom and brother. And also bought some for my other families. When I was done in sharing my family a good life they deserve, and they are all happy now. I planned to have place where I can welcome old people and take care of them. I lost my lolo when I was in grade 5, and 3 years after my favorite and dearest lola past away, I haven’t a had a real chance to spend time and take care of them since I lost them when I was a little girl, that made me more compassionate with other old person, even if I don’t really know them. So this will be a good time for me to share with them my blessings and let them feel loved. Next on my list is to share a part of my money to my favorite church which is the new life, they are improving they’re worship place, so I think this will be a good idea. And had mention my lolo and lola a while ago, I wanted to make them a museum that we could be more comfortable when we visit them at the cemetery.

In our year and a half being together, my special friend did not fail to surprise and provide me almost everything I need and want. And now this will be the perfect time to also surprise and shower him with gifts and anything he dream to have.

I will have to make a business that will make my money grow more so I will have no problem that this will all be gone. And save some for the future. And the other plans will be followed.

Everything are well planned and most of them are done perfectly, and after all that exhausting planning and working. I will go home to my house and rest to my dream bedroom and forget every problem for a while. And will wake up refreshed. ( lights off)

A loud bang waked me up and then I saw hand holding a ticket….. its my lottery ticket!! And I just realize that everything was just a dream and are my plans whenever God will blessed me to win the lottery price. They say that some of your dreams are things that you really wanted and is not happening in the real life, so your dream will make it come true for you just for a moment.

LA VIE EN ROSE

A picture of a book opening, car passes by, the typical busy streets. An old texture of film form the old days, An old kind of lady (someone look like Amy at Sound of Music) singing while walking along the street, a lady suffering from some pains and she was singing everything she feels, a lady dancing on the street while still singing. Another picture came, a typical poor lady meets a wealthy family, - including the rich bachelor, the man saw this lady and starts falling in love with her, the lady feels the same way for him too, then the guy proposes to the lady, and a picture of a them as a happy couple enters. Day pass, the guy carrying his luggage and putting it in the car without talking to the lady and telling her why is he leaving, the lady cried and cried. And another picture came, a band playing instruments and  a guy on a trumpets, the same lady who was left by his lover singing in a stage in front of people in a fine dine restaurant, and the picture changes to her singing in a high class opera house and the song ends. Audience applauses to her and she finally saw again the man who left him in the audience

the janitor's secret

Not everything we thought was always exactly the way it was. Sometimes we part reality from fairy tale that we expect happy ending,
Sometimes forgot that maybe others story were different from the usual.

Mang Jim is a school janitor. He does his works everyday but not given much attention by anyone except for some who would request for help from time to time.  A typical janitor that no one would think that he is no ordinary man. His presence in the school has a purpose, a mission that no ordinary man could easily accept. He did not go on the normal process of getting his job but someone put him there. His role will make a difference and that is what he works for.

 
One student from our school is a general's daughter-she is the one and only child. And Mang Jim is after the General's daughter, he goes to school every day, not to just clean and stand as the hand man, but a spy for the general's daughter, he and his troops, has planned how to get to the daughter easily and revenge to the General the least way he expects. This General has killed many of his co-troops and their family, and one of those are killed is his daughter, a baby girl. And whenever they plan on having a revenge on him he always got his way out safely and not having a bit of scar on. So now they're one step close to the daughter which they called the "alas", they do it nice and easy.
But as the plan went smoothly, and they get closer and closer to fulfilling their revenge plan, Mang Jim's fatherly heart are also starting to tear apart. The General's daughter don't have at least one friend at school, she is also different from them, and much mor different from his father, and one day, Mang Jim and this girl had a chance to talk, the girl ask for his help on fixing his broken locker, the locker was then fixed, and the girl thank him and left but accidentally slipped a paper from her book. Mang Jim at first didn't care for the paper, so he picked it and was about to throw it on the garbage, until he read the words " to: dad"
The paper that slipped on the girl's book, was her letter to her dad, she wasn't even finish writing it, but those words written are enough to tell Mang Jim a story.

She is not the General's legitimate daughter. But they were as close as any dad and daughter are. The General real daughter has been shot on the day of the General's birthday, that situation has made him loose his mind, and made him the beast he is now. No one ever knew that happen, and the General did not tell anyone too.
So they decided to adopt a girl. And that girl is now his daughter.
Jim now thought that even she is now the General's daughter, she is not the real one they are expecting her to be, and he cannot take it to her conscience of kidnapping and killing an innocent girl that the only fault done loved the man they mostly hate.
And every time the girl sees Mang Jim at school, she always smiles at him, and say her hello.
There was this time that some mean student bullied this girl, and Mang Jim was there, he shooed them away and had a chance to talk to the girl. And he knew by that time how sweet and kind this girl is, she doesn't take anything she has now inside her head which makes her so humble, that instance makes it more hard for Jim to still purse whatever plan they are up to.
Mang Jim, is a member of a leftist group called New Peoples Army, and not anyone from his group knew what he was feeling, and thinking, all they knew was the plan is going perfectly smooth.

After reading and learning this hidden story of this girl, his fatherly love arise on him, his monstrous plan was covered now with guilt, he has to choose good after evil, a plan to reveal the plot of the group to the General, the father of this innocent child, for them to have a plan on how to preserve life.

No member of NPA could escape the group easily and the plot that was known by the family’s suppose to become a victim was made known also to the group. Mang Jim was killed during the violence but the truth the he made effort on correcting the mistake in between was remarkable mark on the family of this innocent girl.

End.

3am thought.

 We texted all the time

        You even call most of the night;

        Every word means a lot

        Your voice means so much,

        Made me smile with your sweet desire,

        and your joke made me laugh like a  

        pumpkin pun;

        We never plan to go out once in a while

        but we end up together enjoying each others

        time,

        when I'm with you will count as the best time

        and when time pass will be a scar;

        I sometimes think will it ever last?

        how far? ,

        I don't know why I'm writing this scrap

        I guess it's the effect of my thought

        " I really miss you, when will you be back?"

i don't really know what to call this, but I made this a year ago, I was missing someone back then, i was in the mood to write this and really

ryhm each words, and i came up with my so call "thought-poem". weird huh? i don't know what to call this crap. So then, i posted it now, because I AM FEELING THE SAME WAY AGAIN :| and i have no idea how to write it down, and i guess this will be the perfect one to put into words, how i am feeling right now.

and i hope and pray that he'll be back one of this days.

                                                                    

                                                                   

                                                                                                -  honey